I Need To Control My Mind

I had a really bad day yesterday. 

It began with a stupid comment on one of my Booktube videos. I resisted the urge to reply back and make that person realize how dumb his questions were, which he/she anonymously asked. But then it's not worth wasting your time on such individuals. 

However, this brilliant observation didn't do great to improve my mood.

I come downstairs and I am reminded of all those customers I need to call, a dreadful task for me as I am too scared about handling customers. That went well but the second blow came up when I tried to help my dad fix a phone.

After a mini heart attack that happened because I forgot to delete some pictures from the phone that I didn't want them to see, I started trying to fix the problem. He uses the app for stock trading and the app wasn't working.

As usual, the customer care representative of this company, like every other company in India, didn't know anything beyond what was taught to them in direct words. 

"Mam, when you click login, you will need to enter your login info."

"Yes, but that's the problem. When I click login, the screen is blank. It doesn't ask me to enter anything."

"Mam, but it should."

"Exactly my point!"

I knew I had to do something myself and I gave into a hunch that made me reboot this Xiaomi Redmi Prime 2 which had been my top favourite phone (I have used Samsung Galaxy Ace, Samsung Galaxy Note 2, Google Nexus 5 or 4 maybe, iPhone 6s and Samsung Galaxy S7 edge). 

It went all fine until I was asked to login to my existing mi account. The password or phone number or account number was all I couldn't remember. Then begins the process of calling another customer care service and have a stupid response and no solution.

The day was bad already. Then began the thoughts that haunted me from day before yesterday - a broken tripod, a broken memory card and a camera lens that won't focus properly in this home setup. It works fine in Delhi but there internet doesn't work that greatly. 

I was sinking the pit of sorrows and I knew I shouldn't do it.

The more I will let myself feel bad, the more I will feel bad. That kept happening. That happened. And it was dreadful. But it made me realise one thing - I still need to go a long way to have a control on my mind. I need to learn to control my mind and my thoughts. You should too!